As some of you know already, my mother was a victim of violent crime. There were no goodbyes, embraces or words of love before she was so viciously taken.I think of her often, and sometimes it is accompanied with good memories and smiles, sometimes in the horror of imagining how she felt those final moments of her life, leaving behind six children and 6 grandchildren, sometimes through the waves of pain that ebb and flow over my soul as I yearn to hold her, hug her and tell her how much I love her and miss her. My mother was a beautiful woman, full of love, wisdom and laughter, her light shining brightly in the midst of all she came in contact with, her heart reaching out to share her vibrant spirit to those close to her, even to strangers. She was amazing, the coolest mom in the world. She was open minded and enjoyed all kinds of music, one hell of a cook and a good listener, amongst a thousand other things. Once she took me and my oldest brother, whom I love so much with all my heart, and his girl, to a Pink Floyd concert when I was 16, he 18. I remember our voices being so hoarse the next day as we laughed at the time we had.
This song by Guns and Roses was playing one night very shortly after her death. I could feel her speaking to me through the words of this song, her spirit moving in my heart and soul through these words. I am weeping now as I type this to you. I wanted to share this song and the beautiful lyrics with you, and lift up my mothers sweet memory to the cosmos through the witnesses of my amazing readers. Thank you for taking a moment to feel with me, and I pray a special comfort and peace for those out there who have lost someone they love dearly. May the memory of our loved ones continue to live and give through our lives, their light having never truly gone out through the legacy they left with us and the way they impacted our lives. Love you mamma, so much….Thank you for still checking in on me from time to time and speaking words of comfort….I feel every one and know you are there……Until we meet again……. </3