Epic-Love

The moonlight shines upon her hair

the eyes of all the damned did stare

enchanted by her beauty fair

each step she took she must beware.

They called to her on every breeze

they watched her from amongst the trees

they longed for her on bended knees

her love could free them from their disease.

For her they fought both day and night

to pursue her affections within plain sight

the victor who won would be given the right

to claim for himself her healing light.

But alas, her soul flew like a dove

her heart she gave to an angel from above

in return, to her he vowed his love

to which the damned swore they’d rid of.

Sealed with A Kiss

I try to steady the drumming of my heart

as I wait to catch a glimpse of you

though I know my feet are on the ground

I feel like I’m floating, too.

My hopeful eyes seek you out

a desperate search far and wide

I cannot stop the longing I feel

this ache for you down deep inside.

At last I see you in the crowd

as I watch you drawing near

I try to gasp for precious air

as I enter your celestial sphere.

My heart it soars on feathered wings

it’s so hard for me to breathe

I pray your eyes will drift to mine

and finally take notice of me.

I gravitate toward your beautiful soul

like a moth drawn to the flame

I’d give up my wings for the chance to hear

your sweet lips whisper my name.

The ground disappears beneath me and time stands still

as you lift up your handsome face

I tumble headlong as our eyes collide

and I know that I’ve fallen from grace.

The connection is instant, our hearts entwine

drowning in a sea of bliss

we step into each others arms

and seal our fate with a kiss.

~ Celeste ~

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! ~ ‘A Thousand Years’ + Haiku

Haiku:

Eyes meet and lock across the distance

a connection stronger than time

found at last, fated lovers come together.

~ Celeste ~

Lyrics to song:

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehowOne step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Destiny

Pristine white wings, dipped in blood

not marring their perfection, nothing could.

A wicked twinkle in endless, loving eyes

passion burning bright, no way to disguise.

A hand reaching out to touch across worlds

the magic of desire seizes and unfurls.

Enthralled and flushed crimson, staining soft, ivory skin

to want someone so deeply must surely be a sin.

A song of love yearning, a fever in my veins,

lifting arms to capture, if just a tiny strain.

Powerful notes through the universe surge

birthed from the flames, two souls emerge.

Immortal eyes to mortal ones, lock in surprise

a connection so strong it ignites the skies.

Oh that the world were a merciful place

that I could but touch his lovely, burning face.

Gazes hold with conviction as two hearts quake

reaching for the other, afraid for the moment to escape.

Like Icarus that flew too close to the sun

helpless to stop it, in desperation I run.

Consumed deeper than need, all earthly cares I shun

with abandon he hastens to me and destiny binds us as one.

Lightening strikes all around, energizing the night

as our fates were sealed together by love at first sight.

~ Celeste ~

Groovy kind of Love

For the man responsible for my healing heart…..every smile, every look, and every thought of you fills me with peace and happiness…..thank you for giving me the gift of true love and showing me what it means to really live life.
I will love you forever, long after death,
and whisper your name with my last dying breath……
I love you Jeremy…. ♥

When I’m feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I’m not so blue
When you’re close to me, I can feel your heart beat
I can hear you breathing in my ear
Wouldn’t you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love

Anytime you want to you can turn me onto
Anything you want to, anytime at all
When I kiss your lips, ooh I start to shiver
Can’t control the quivering inside
Wouldn’t you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love, oh

When I’m feeling blue, all I have to do
Is take a look at you, then I’m not so blue
When I’m in your arms, nothing seems to matter
My whole world could shatter, I don’t care
Wouldn’t you agree, baby you and me got a groovy kind of love
We got a groovy kind of love
We got a groovy kind of love, oh
We got a groovy kind of love

My Immortal Love, My Beloved……..(reblog)

So carefully, mindfully,

do you come to me in my chambers….

How lovely the sound of your approaching footsteps

to my threshhold.

How I have longed for this moment,

waited for the day I shall see you once more;

Your consuming presence transforms me

into an illuminate creature,

an angelic being belonging to the light

no longer held prisoner by the shadows.

The sound of your voice

tames my furious inner seas,

brings peace to the fiery tempest that rages

in the lonely and broken recesses

of my soul….

My heart you have won,

It is yours forever.

Gentle as a dove

you cradle my fragile, mortal heart

that was ravaged and left to perish

in the desolate wastelands.

Sweetly you feed me Ambrosia,

imparting healing and strength of the Gods.

I am nourished and cared for,

given new life,

a reason to believe again.

As thunder rolls in the near distance,

behind closed eyes

I shudder with longing….

I burn for you.

The ground quakes….

trembling, I ignite into brilliant flames,

the light bursting forth

and thawing the icy cathedrals of despair

that hold me captive.

Relief washes over me

like white spring rains

when at long last you reach out for me

pulling me into your arms….

holding me so tightly

as you shelter me from

the looming darkness that threatens

my safe passage into eternity.

Strong hands tenderly raise

my tear stained face

to meet the resolution

and stark beauty of iridescent eyes,

and I am assured of the sincerity

and trust that lies within.

And as passion brews there,

you bend down slowly

to plant hungry kisses on my lips

that grow in intensity

as they travel down the smooth

alabaster skin of my neck,

desperately,

as though it were the last time

you would taste me.

The honied, dewy lips

of my immortal, my beloved

is a force of life felt throughout time,

my warrior, a gift of joy….

His presence a token

of true love and desire,

so freely and lavishly

bestowed upon me.

Oh, that you would forever

hold me close to your bosom,

and breath new life into

my weary bones….

For I am tired

and heavy with the sorrows

and grievances of this world.

Take me, carry me away with you

as you spread your wings in flight

to soar through the clouds

and into the promised lands

and let me remain with you forevermore;

until life as we have known it

is no more,

and all things cease to exist,

wiped from every memory

and vanished beyond the realms of time.

~ Celeste ~

Arisen

As some of you know, I have a soft place for a wonderfully composed epic symphony, the strength of it’s life and beauty mesmerizing me and pulling at the strings of my heart. I am always searching for something new, and came across this one not long ago. It is a little shorter than I would like, but still packs a punch, the impact well worth two minutes of ear ecstasy! Below is a prose piece that came to me while listening to this invigorating composition.

Turn it up, enjoy, and have an amazing day! :)

Drawing ever near your infinite cosmic pulse

Ardent and majestic is your soul of fiery passion

Affected by your celestial touch

I’m left yearning in breathless reverie

My feeble heart rests, wrapped in your spirited splendor

Whisked away in your brilliant light

Cascading into your resplendent glory

Your strong hands lift me up as a breath

And I bask in the might of your possession

The tenacious ache of your beauty dark

So sweet and wrapped in velvet night

A silken kiss from your timeless essence

Angelic lips of illuminate fire

Their sparks of life buried deep inside me

Sown within and birthed new life

I, your lady immortal.

My Angel of Night (14)

Hello everyone! I have been away for a short while spending time with family and focusing on writing my story, particularly this installment. I have also been having some health issues that have kept me from sleeping or focusing as well as I should, so it took me a little longer to write this. Thanks to everyone who checked in on me while I was away. I know I am way behind on reading, but promise I will be working hard to catch up. Finally, here is the fourteenth installment of the story. Hope everyone enjoys this anticipated chapter. Let me know your thoughts. Thank you and have a great memorial weekend! :)

I must still be dreaming, I thought, closing my eyes again in disbelief.

“Come on, Lilith, wake up.” I said quietly to myself, opening one eye slowly, then the other. To my dismay, the same strange environment surrounded me. Shocked, I had awakened in a large and luxurious black canopy bed, laying in the midst of blood red silk sheets. There were little red roses carved along the length of the four corner posts. Sheer black curtains hung loose from the canopy, flowing with haunting fluidity around the bed.

My confusion quickly turned to fear as I realized this was not a dream, but reality.

Where am I? How did I get here? Little by little my memory came back to me. A male angel with dark blue wings and amber eyes had appeared and said he would be replacing the two angels of comfort until they returned. He had said his name was Lucious, and I recalled my feelings of unease as he reached down for me and pulled me into his arms. He had not had the same gentle feel as the other angels. He carried himself with an air of authority, his presence strong and commanding. I heard him speak in an unknown tongue, after which the world went black.

Had the the angel brought me to this place? Why would he? I am certain that Uriel would not have wanted him to take me away from our home. My chest ached from the memory of my archangel, and I wished so much that he was here. The pain of his absence was an enormous, heavy load and I would be so relieved to have him back with me.

Slowly I sat up and looked around the room I was in. I had this strange, sinking feeling of being trapped, locked up like a caged animal. My eyes searched for any clues that would tell me where I was. I could see a bathing pool in an adjoining room from here and a full length mirror on the opposite wall. There was a large armoire, an exquisite vanity set, and a small, antique table with a pull out drawer, and a golden oil lamp sat on top. Onyx fire sconces lined the walls and provided ample light. I soon realized that the only way in or out of here was through a large stone door that I hoped would be unlocked. Curious to see if it was locked or not, I got out of the bed and stood to my feet. My eyes grew wide when I looked down and saw what I had on.

I was wearing a long, sheer dress with black designs that left little to the imagination. The see through material was strapless and fit snugly, clinging to my every line and curve. Patterns of webbed, black silk barely covered my breasts, starting from their outsides and reaching to just over my nipples. The black silk continued down in a vertical strip of intricate patterns on both sides of my body, leaving the rest of my upper body exposed down to my bikini line. There, it mercifully reached across and expanded down and around to cover up my intimate places, thinning back out as it trailed down the remaining length of the dress. Thigh length, side splits exposed my legs as I walked, topping it all off for good measure.

My jaw dropped open as I gawked at the skimpy material, my cheeks flushing red hot in my embarrassment and anger. How had I got this on me? Surely I was not expected to wear this!

“What the hell?’ I wondered out loud, but before I could throw a fit I heard a booming knock on the door. It swung open on it’s own to reveal a large hooded figure on the other side. I was so frightened my legs almost gave out from under me.

“The master desires your company and is expecting you. Follow me.” it said in a low, gravely voice. Without it being said, it was clear to me that I was not being given a choice. As much as I hated the thought of going anywhere with the menacing figure, not a fiber in me rushed to my defense or dared to defy it. Not only that, but his ‘master’ would surely tell me where I was and when I would be returning home.

I took a deep breath and started toward the door before I lost my nerve. My legs feeling heavy as lead, I followed behind as the hooded figure led me through a number of passageways and down a flight of stoney stairs. Everything was made of stone and it reminded me of the caves I had visited as a girl on a field trip with my school. Were we underground? A shiver ran through me as the thought crossed my mind. We continued walking, our steps lighted by the fire sconces along the walls.Finally we came to the end of a corridor that opened up into a large, spacious area. Thousands of candles were perfectly spaced in ledges all around the walls, casting a bright, warm glow in the room.

My eyes were drawn to a small waterfall pouring out from a large crevice in the rock wall, maybe ten to twelve feet up. A long passage had been grooved out for the water to travel by, which led to the center of the room where it collected into a basin made of rock, forming a pool. The rock was a glassy black material which reminded me of the volcanic rock, obsidian. It appeared as though it had been one very large stone, hollowed out and then seemingly chunked and chiseled strategically all around the outside. It was breathtaking, amazing to see how it behaved much like a diamond, the light bringing out and capturing it’s radiance, reflecting back the natural flecks of rainbow colors within it. It was mesmerizing as it twinkled brilliantly, a dark diamond boasting in it’s shining splendor. There were roses of every kind and color, with slightly more crimson, deep purple and coral hues. They began growing by the waterfall, traveling along the water passageway, and on to the basin where clusters of the multicolored beauties grew all around it’s base.

Though temporarily distracted by the enchantment before me, it did nothing to lift the dread and unease that weighed so heavily on my soul. I redirected my attention and continued to look around the room. My eyes stopped to rest on a long, elegant banquet table that was set for two to dine at one end. Six candles burned in a golden, arched candle holder against a black and gold vase of freshly picked red roses. My heart skipped a beat as I began to wonder about the reason I was brought here, for it looked as though this angel was in no hurry to get me home. In fact, it seemed quite the opposite. My cheeks blazed red hot once again as I fumed over the inappropriate attire I had been given to wear, but I resisted, refusing to let myself feel humiliated.

There was a surge of energy in the room as the angel named Lucious appeared at the head of the table. Hearing a sound behind me I turned to see the hooded figure exiting the room, leaving the two of us alone. My emotions stormed angrily in my chest and my heart began to pound, anger and fear warring against me for control.

“Good evening, my lady.” he said with a smirk. “I assume you slept well in your quarters, yes?” 

I crossed my arms over my chest, unimpressed. “I would have slept better in my own bed.”I said, challenging him.

He pretended not to hear and continued on without missing a beat. “Come, Lilith. Sit and dine with me a while.”

As long as I’m here, I may as well humor him and discover what his true motives are. I had questions he needed to answer, and he better have good reason for bringing me here.

As I began to make my way toward him he made no attempt to hide his lust from me. His eyes roamed greedily over my scantily clothed body, slowly licking his lips in approval. I swallowed down my pride and anger, keeping my head held high.

“I trust you like the dress I picked out for you.” he said as I came to a stop before him, sliding his gaze over my body one last time before staring into my eyes.

“Apparently not as much as you do.” I said dryly, staring back at him. I would fight to hold my ground and I refused to let him intimidate me. It seemed my answer amused him for he threw his head back and laughed out loud. “Indeed.” he said, smiling as he pulled out my chair. “Sit with me, Lilith.” He waited for me to obey.

“I can seat myself, thank you.” I said curtly, brows furrowed.

The smile immediately left his face. “It is not wise to provoke me, woman. Nevertheless, suit yourself.” he said sitting down in his own chair at the head of the table. I reluctantly sat down and slid the chair as close to the table as possible, trying to hide as much of my body as I could from his lustful, wandering eyes.

Before I could even ask him my first question, he stopped me. “All I ask is that you eat and drink with me before you begin prying for information. Afterwards I will give you all the answers you seek.” Just then another hooded servant brought out our dinners. After the servant left us, my eyes were drawn to the mysterious golden goblet before me. As I admired it’s ancient beauty, it began to fill itself up with a dark red liquid that I guessed was wine.

“Are you doing that?” I asked as I stared at the goblet dumbfounded.

He answered in a hypnotic voice. “Yes.”

I became oddly fascinated by the goblet, drawn in by it’s enchantment. I was suddenly eager to taste of it’s contents, to savor the alluring red wine. I could see him watching me intently from the corner of my eye as I lifted the goblet to my lips. The seductive fragrance wafted under my nose and I paused to breath in the exotic aroma before taking a drink. It was smooth and sweet as it washed down the back of my throat, but it had an almost bitter, slightly metallic aftertaste. After a few more swallows I began to feel light headed. “What’s in this stuff?” I mumbled, but he did not answer me.

My body surged with an electric kind of heat that worked it’s way through my insides and loosened my tense muscles. My thoughts became fuzzy as I drifted into a euphoric state of being, my desires unfurling, my defenses falling away. I could hear my own voice shouting with worry and alarm somewhere in the depths of my mind, but the intense high I was experiencing quickly drowned it out. I looked down at an empty plate. When had I eaten it?

“Lilith.” I heard my name whispered sweetly in my ear.

“Hmmmmm?” I replied dreamily.

“Look at me.” a gentle voice said to me.

“Uriel?” I asked expectantly, my heart thrumming excitedly at the possibility.

I heard a loud roar and felt large hands grip my shoulders too tightly. It was enough to stun me, causing me to come out of my stupor, at least enough to focus on the form before me. Lucious was inches from my face, his hands squeezing my shoulders as he stared at me with a wild eyed, angry expression, though I could not understand why. Suddenly, I heard a whooshing sound as my back was slammed against a wall. He pressed his body onto mine and bent his head to kiss me briefly before lifting me off of my feet to seat me on a rocky ledge. He pushed my legs apart and moved to stand between them, leaning in towards me until I could feel the warmth of his breath against my face.

He drew closer, skimming his nose over the line of my jaw, drawing in a deep breath to take in my scent. He growled and nipped at the spot just below my ear, his teeth grazing over my sensitive skin. I sat so still, afraid to move a muscle. He drew back and lifted his hand to gently run his thumb over my lips. Slowly, he moved down lower, splaying his fingers wide as he glided his hand down and over the curves and planes of my exposed body, finally coming to a stop at the top of my thigh. He hissed in his in his burning desire, his state of arousal overwhelmingly obvious to me.

I was disgusted, my anger flaring as he enjoyed himself at my expense, but when I began to protest, a wave of heady lust washed through me, throwing me off track. I was growing familiar with his tactics, though, and I held on even more tightly to reality. The bastard was trying to seduce me, using his powers to compel me, as if he needed to after bewitching me to drink the wine, which apparently had been laced with a potent aphrodisiac. I hated that my body was in the throes of arousal in his presence, even if it was unbidden, hated that he had an advantage over me, an element of control that was almost impossible to fight. I was breaking out in a sheen of sweat as I fought against his influence of temptation and lust.

An image of Uriel came to my mind, and I found myself feeling anew the gaping hole his absence had left in me. The pain was a stake driven into my heart. I longed for him, for his comforting touch and strength. How I wish he were here to rescue me from this monster. I gritted my teeth together as another wave of lust washed through me. I had to dig deep inside my reservoir of strength to resist it’s powerful urges.

“Lilith.” he said in a fiery, breathless tone. “I want you so bad.” His knuckles turned white from clenching his fist as he spoke. “From the first moment I laid my eyes on you I’ve desired you, but I don’t want to take from you what you can freely give to me.”

Well, he would be waiting an awful long time if he thought that would ever happen.

He grabbed my hand suddenly and placed it over his hard length. My desire unraveled under the compulsion of lust as I felt it pulsing under my hand. I barely managed to conceal the groan that wanted so badly to escape from my lips. He was huge and rock hard, would feel so good filling me up as he slid in and out of my hot core…..I screamed inwardly at the thoughts in my head, trying to regain my grip of sanity. God, what had I ever done to deserve this! I was being tempted by the devil himself, and I feared losing this battle if he continued to insist on having his way with me.

“Please do not fight it, Lilith.” he pleaded as he snaked his hand underneath my dress, trailing a line with his long finger to the V of my thigh. “Let go and give yourself over to your desires. I would very much like to fuck you mindless.” His words were poison, twisting and winding their way around my insides, tempting me shamelessly. He moved his finger over and pressed it against my wet flesh. He smiled, groaning in satisfaction to find me hot and wet with need. The bastard. This was pure hell of the worst kind. Helpless to stop it, I moaned as he slid the tip of his finger inside me, hating myself, hating him and despising this whole damn mess I was in.

He growled seductively before whispering in my ear. “Damn, you are so hot, Lilith. So very beautiful.” He slid in another inch of his finger.  “You feel so smooth and tight…I want to bury my cock in your hot little body over and over until you faint from the pleasure of it.” He brought up his other hand to brace the back of my neck. “I can feel how badly you want me, your wet flesh does not lie. Give yourself to me, Lilith, and do not fight it any longer.” he said in earnest as he covered my mouth with his in a blazen kiss, thrusting the entire length of his finger inside me.

Damn my fears and damn him! I said to myself, gaining strength from my panic as it fueled my body with adrenaline. All I wanted to do was escape before it was too late, before the bastard defiled my body any further and stole away my self respect and peace of mind. I bit down into his lip as hard as I could. When he jerked back I slapped him open handed across his face with every ounce of strength I could muster before pulling back my feet and thrusting them out to kick him off of me. “Screw you!” I shouted angrily at him. “Stay away and keep your filthy hands off of me! When Uriel finds me and learns of the way you’ve shamed me, he will take great pleasure in killing you.” I directed all my rage at him as I stared him down, though I was shaking, terrified of the consequences of my actions.

I had barely dazed him but surely succeeded in pissing him off. He roared out loud with a viciousness that vibrated through my chest and shook the walls. The thousands of lit candles flickered and threatened to go out as a gust of energy blasted from his body.  He balled his fist tight and raised it up at me, his eyes glowing with crimson red flames. His appearance seemed to flicker back and forth from what I knew him as to an indescribable creature with with black, bat like wings that were lined with razor sharp points along the bottom edges.

I screamed and covered my face as he lunged at me with a balled fist at full strength. I braced myself in preparation for the blow, but his fist landed with a loud crack just inches from my head and into the rock wall. The spot of impact was pulverized and at least a foot deep. The rock crumbled around his steely hand and splintered off in different directions. I knew I would not have survived such a blow.

He withdrew his hand and seemed to escape with only minor scrapes. I was frozen in terror, my body shaking from the whole traumatic experience. It was eerily quite, neither of us saying a word to break the silence. He raised his hand and touched his fingers to his bloody lip where I had bitten him, staring at me with a lethal expression. After a few moments, though, his expression softened a bit.

” I must say,” he began, “that you are stronger than I gave you credit for. I admire your courage.” He gave a smirk and narrowed his eyes at me. “In fact, to be honest I am rather turned on by it.”

Oh God. Not only was he inhumanly strong and prone to fits of violence, but he was completely psycho. I watched him as he crossed his steely arms over his chest.

“Let’s get some things straight, my lady, and out in the open. I am Lucious, Lord of Hades.” He paused to let that shocking little piece of of information settle in my brain. So, I had hauled off and slapped the Lord of Hades? My head was dizzy and I felt faint. I was overloaded, my brain fried and soul weary. I had had all a girl could take already. 

As I thought it, he continued. “I have brought you here to be my mate and companion, to sit by my side as queen. You are mine, Lilith.” His eyes bore into mine and seemed to go straight through to my soul, which had grown cold and downcast from his words. I shivered from an unseen chill though the room was plenty warm. “You are never again to speak of Uriel or mention his name in my presence. The sooner you accept the fact you will never see him again, the better off you will be. The wine you drank tonight was the wine of Hades, laced with a small amount of my blood.” I swallowed the bile that rose up in my throat upon hearing those words. “My blood binds you to me, allows you to live as long as I do, and ensures you can never escape me. If you did I could track you no matter where you are. You are bound to me for eternity, and you will eventually grow to love me as the years go by. After all, we have forever together.”

He came to stand before me and reached out to cup my face. I shunned him and moved back so that he could not touch me. For a fleeting moment he seemed angry, but then he smiled. I could not believe his audacity in thinking he could steal me away against my will, from the man and the world I loved, and expect me to ever love him. I was furious, the pain in my soul a vicious sting.

“If I wanted, I could make you crawl, reduce you to begging for my cock to be inside you. It would not be the first time I have taken what I wanted.” I swallowed back another wave of bile, my stomach clenching and queasy. I glared at him in my rage. “That will be the only way you will have me, for I will never want you. I will never willingly go to you.” My heart broke in my chest all over again as my hopes of being with Uriel again were shattered. I would not give the monster the satisfaction of seeing my pain or witnessing my tears.

He tucked a wisp of hair behind my ear. “That is not how I want you. I don’t just want your body, but your heart as well. I will prove my love and show you graciousness, giving you your space and a generous amount of time to come to me. I know that one day you will. My blood will grow stronger in you with the passage of time and you will grow to love me. For a time, I will be satisfied with having you here, knowing you are mine as I wait for you. I only insist that you dine with me every night, for I find it difficult to be away from you for too long.” He bowed his head to me. “Until tomorrow night, my love.” he said before vanishing before me.

A hooded figure appeared and motioned for me to follow. It escorted me to my room and left. As soon as the door was shut I immediately got into the bathing pool and scrubbed myself repeatedly as I wept. I wept with great sorrow, and knew suffering like I had never known before. The pain was so tremendous and relentless that I found myself wishing for death. I mourned my Uriel and for the love we would now never have. I mourned my life and the earth above me. I longed to see the sun, the moon and stars, to lie in my garden with Uriel’s arms around me tight. I had only thought I was in hell before. Now, I literally was. I was terrified and felt hopeless to be saved, helpless to do anything about my turmoil.

When I was through bathing, I dragged myself to the bed, a bed that was not my own, my heart finding no comfort anywhere I turned. I wondered what would happen to me now that the Lord of Hades blood dwelt within my body. I wept long into the night, holding a vision of Uriel’s face in my memory. I did not want to forget a single thing about him.

Hearing my thoughts, I suddenly realized that to be able to bear up under these terrible circumstances, and for the sake of our love, I had to hang on to that small ray of hope that Uriel was alright and that he would find me. I had to believe, had to hold on. I knew how great his love for me was, and that he would not stop until every stone had been turned in search of me. “I love you, Uriel, always and forever, until the end of time. Come and take me away from this hell, my love. Please save me.” My pillow drenched in my tears, I silently sent up a prayer to the heavens and wept myself to exhaustion, the sweet mercy of sleep finally finding me and ushering me to a place of rest.

Don’t you cry tonight

As some of you know already, my mother was a victim of violent crime. There were no goodbyes, embraces or words of love before she was so viciously taken.I think of her often, and sometimes it is accompanied with good memories and smiles, sometimes in the horror of imagining how she felt those final moments of her life, leaving behind six children and 6 grandchildren, sometimes through the waves of pain that ebb and flow over my soul as I yearn to hold her, hug her and tell her how much I love her and miss her. My mother was a beautiful woman, full of love, wisdom and laughter, her light shining brightly in the midst of all she came in contact with, her heart reaching out to share her vibrant spirit to those close to her, even to strangers. She was amazing, the coolest mom in the world. She was open minded and enjoyed all kinds of music, one hell of a cook and a good listener, amongst a thousand other things. Once she took me and my oldest brother, whom I love so much with all my heart, and his girl, to a Pink Floyd concert when I was 16, he 18. I remember our voices being so hoarse the next day as we laughed at the time we had.

This song by Guns and Roses was playing one night very shortly after her death. I could feel her speaking to me through the words of this song, her spirit moving in my heart and soul through these words. I am weeping now as I type this to you. I wanted to share this song and the beautiful lyrics with you, and lift up my mothers sweet memory to the cosmos through the witnesses of my amazing readers. Thank you for taking a moment to feel with me, and I pray a special comfort and peace for those out there who have lost someone they love dearly. May the memory of our loved ones continue to live and give through our lives, their light having never truly gone out through the legacy they left with us and the way they impacted our lives. Love you mamma, so much….Thank you for still checking in on me from time to time and speaking words of comfort….I feel every one and know you are there……Until we meet again……. </3

The chronicles of Uriel and Lilith (from Lilith to Uriel)

A poem from the heart of Lilith, to the archangel Uriel, her destined mate and true love, during her travail in his absence.

 I see you smiling, your arms reaching for me

I run at last to hold you, my soul soaring free

I throw my arms around you to hold you to me tight

your image breaks and vanishes, mist floating into the night.

 To my knees I fall and to the skies I scream

twas not my love but only a dream

grief consumes me, my tears flow hot

sorrow besets my every thought.

 My heart bleeds within me, weary and frail

my body longs for yours to no avail

my soul downcast and broken, no longer discerning

can no longer sense through the wrath of this burning.

 As in death I mourn the bliss of your touch

the memories of our passion now hurts far too much

haunted by your face you’re all my heart can see

in misery I wonder why heaven has forsaken me.

 Oh come quickly my love, and save me once more

my strength and my sanity only you can restore

to the gods I humbly beg, send up my tearful plea

I’d gladly give my soul to have you back with me.

 For my love to return I wait day and night

with the last of my strength this darkness I fight

I’ll hold on to the hope till the moment of death

and whisper your name with my last dying breath.

 

Added for the romance story ‘My Angel of Night’ that I am currently writing.  If you have not read it yet and would like to,  I invite you to read the heart gripping, soul wrenching love story of Uriel and Lilith. Come on this journey with me as we explore the heights and depths of their journey. :) You can access the first installment by typing in ‘My angel of night in the search bar and scrolling down to the same first title. Hope you enjoy! :)

 

 

 

To end all wars ( Uriel and Lilith)

Feeling a sadness today, a sadness preparing me for the tone about to beset my story that I am writing….I stumbled across this this morning looking for a melodic tone to reflect my mood. As soon as I heard this song, it reminded me of Uriel and Lilith, the love deepening between them and the journey they are about to embark upon,  the beginning of the sorrows, joys, hardships and triumphs they will ultimately share. Yes, I am very much treating my story as a real live event that I am an active participant in. How else can one write a story such as this and bring about the realness of emotion and heart wrenching dilemma? That and a lack of sleep, lol. But I am having fun and enjoying this little adventure I have only glimpsed of in a dream in times past. I hope you continue to enjoy the story as it unfolds, and enjoy this brief but emotionally beautiful piece of music. :)

Also, could everyone please let me know if my post notifications are reaching your emails? There seems to be a problem going on that I need to see to if indeed this is the case. Thank you!

Vengence is mine

I wrote the following freestyle poem set to the song ‘marry me’ below. As some of you know, this is my very favorite epic love symphony. I have composed more than one poem from it. I cherish this song deeply as it speaks to me and plays on the strings of my heart.

So without further delay, my dramatic poem, set to sounds of the brilliant composer Hans Zimmer. Enjoy.


What must I do to bring back your smile?

What must I say to prove my love?

I can no longer sit and watch your tears

while my love wastes away.

I pray to the heavens for only God knows

how very tender my heart is turned to you

and only he sees

how I have struggled and fought for you in vain.

I would go anywhere, do anything

to see the shining glow in your eyes

Climb the perilous mountains, swim the treacherous seas….

you know I would give my soul to redeem you

from your present nightmare.

Feel this heart that pounds in my chest for you

receive love’s passion that burns inside and do not let it die

make it your shelter from the storm and heal your wounds

it is forever there to make you whole.

I know not what tomorrow holds

but this one thing I do

I’ll continue to rage war with the savage hoards

I will rescue you, back to me, from the one who stole you.

But the shadows cast across your face

sow fear within my mind

oh what a wretched kind of battle

fighting with what I cannot see.

I cannot lose you to the dark

I would not make it through

my pleas for you to hear my cries

are falling on deaf ears that once were so alive.

Tears fall from the wellspring that has become my eyes

they stain my hot, swollen cheeks

splashing, falling, a stream of grief

down to the barren earth below.

NO! I will not be tempted, cast away into despair

will not my tears be for naught only to be

swallowed up by evil’s sinister laugh.

On the contrary, my love….

each and every one shall be avenged.

And also yours.

If it means I fight until my hairs are all gray

with or without you, until the end…

they will not take you quietly into the night

not without my wrath to accompany their wretched deeds.

But if it must be so, then to the grave I go

with you still by my side, buried with our plundered love…

for I will never leave you alone in your nightmarish plight.

When that day comes may the gates of heaven welcome our weary souls

and usher us into the healing waters of life

to rebirth and restore to us in another world

what was once enjoyed and stolen too soon in this one.

But until then, hell will have to deal with me

and contend with my might, if indeed they aim to claim you.

We will go out in a blaze of glory…..

if it must be so, so be it.

Your face still frozen and heart so ill

I take your loving hands

remembering the way they would touch me

their warmth and desire winding it’s way to my inmost places.

Anger boils beneath the surface

my will and strength ignited anew

hell will not go unpunished

for this curse they have brought upon you.

I will avenge you, my love and redeem you from the pits

before God and man, this to you I truly vow….

I’ll journey far and smite them with a single glance

from my vengeful and ever watchful eyes.

~ Celeste ~

My love hangs on the cross

Alas, my love hangs on the cross

the cross he bore with tears

the memory of which has been ingrained

carried inside me throughout the years.

Hushed silence spread through the crowd like wildfire

as the earth opened to receive it’s own son,

creation cried out against the flesh of man

witnessing the brutality done to the one.

I gaze upon the broken body in shock

that hung limp there from the tree

he had lived his life an example of love

then gave it up for you and me.

Weeping eyes and aching hearts

no nothing can compare

to the loss and pain we felt that day

crucified were we too on the hill there.

Rough hands abuse the body of my lord

nothing none can do but stare

remember the wrath his soul endured

enticements and deceit one must beware.

Surrounded in precious pools of blood

the earth below was stained

I dipped my hands in cooling crimson

marked my heart with the life drained.

The last breath we witnessed, he gave for all

“Father forgive them” we heard

true to his life until the end

bestowing upon us his final word.

The sun blotted out, ushered in the dark

the earth’s foundation shook us to our soul

graves breaking open, the dead were walking

and in great fear the persecutors now his name extol.

Our precious lord laid we in a tomb adorned

mourning the touch of his hand

but on the third day the stone rolled away

and our hearts did finally understand.

That love without sacrifice is love not known

suffering and pain accompany the true

and the act that was done had opened the door

and made love possible, without end for me and you.

~ Celeste ~

Last Goodbye

This symphony of love is so gentle and full of tenderness and peace. Close your eyes, relax, and let the sounds carry you into a restful place. Enjoy…….

 

Discovering Heaven

At the peak of the mountain stands my soul, joy exuding from every pore…from the top of my lungs a shout of victory and jubilation, and the sound is carried on the winds and scattered throughout the earth and upwards into space, settling peacefully like a soft winter snow, in smooth molecular spheres that shine like ivory pearls. Infused with the strength of a thousand men, I feel as though I could split open the atmosphere and bring the heavens down to the earth.

For today I heard a voice, beheld a marvelous truth….a reflection in the mirror of my soul…and although I now understand how I have always felt it there, I had no words to help me comprehend it or speak of it. I believe some truths are such that they remain hidden until the one who bears it is ready to receive it, able to hold it and carry it respectfully. And now I see for myself a truth for me, and I believe….

My faith has made a momentous leap, grown a proud measure….

Blessed be thy name, lord of glory…..

A day like any other, my reflection in the mirror….but what I see is not what I expect….

But my good father standing there with outstretched arms….. and I know his arms have always been open for me, but this reflection, the image WAS ME…..

The love of the father for me, living in me, rushing through my veins, has now become ME.

It is alive and flowing out of my outstretched arms and out into the world, acknowledging, accepting, giving, believing….willing and unafraid, believing in love eternal, unconditional.

And with a twinkle in his infinite, knowing eyes, he smiled at me……

and that smile spread across my soul, opening it deep and wide, filling each empty space with love, warming my every nerve and fiber, searching out and occupying my every thought…

And the tears that followed were healing waters, washing away the debris of a fractured soul, the jagged remains of the thorny cathedral walls of a dark kingdom’s demise….now all washed away…..

How the revelation has changed my perception….all the good that I have grown to be came from a childlike faith…..my inner child watching and mimicking her heavenly father….the one only seen with the eyes of her heart….

it came by perceiving and accepting his everlasting love for her, loving and believing in her still in all her wrongs and shortcomings, even when everyone else had failed her and left her to feel as though she was not worthy of love……

yet she held on to him still and chose to believe….not even hell itself could convince her to let go, or deceive her away from her birth right! Many times it was all she had, the only reason she had to remain here and continue the journey….he must need her here else why would she be here?

So, in the end, that was good enough for her. So through hellfire, tribulation and pain she endured,…for something she could not see or touch, but only feel with her heart…endured for even just the hope of  what she felt inside.

And for that the father rejoiced and wept with joy…..For an empty place in his own heart was now filled, a sorrow now healed over. He was proud of her and touched by her faith….for she had kept going when she had no earthly reason, no evidence to back up her actions or proof to help support her human frailties….

And so he rewarded her this day, making her a princess and ruler of her own right…..he entrusted her with his belongings and knew she would care for them and lead others into the same light of love…..

What a blessing to see with my own eyes, to know beyond a doubt….that the truth deep down is real, the things hoped for are possible, and dreams do become reality…..and this true to life fairytale is only just beginning….there is a story just like this for everyone…..the gift of a dream waiting to be realized, opened and lived….this is heaven on earth….

We do not need to wait for death to live in heaven. No, the reality of heaven is now, in the present, in this moment….this is how it was always meant to be lived…..it is not just a place, but an eternity, one that we are already in….a perpetual state of reality, the reality of now….heaven is a perspective, a realization, something felt, something discovered…..we do not need to wait for our eyes to see, for they are already open….heaven is where your heart is….heaven is home…..heaven is here, and it is now.

~ Celeste ~

 

 

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