Haunting Glory (experimental no edit)

 This was NOT in any way edited. This song played as I wrote, setting the ambiance in my environment….. Here goes…..

All encompassing, a buzzing in the chest and mind,

the body as in post coital glow,

the nerves played as musical notes that hum throughout in discordant harmony,

settling over the body in a blanket of warmth,

swelling the heart, losing the spirit,

breaking open the stony dams that withhold the strength of deep rushing waters……

A terrifying humility that comes in the presence of the culmination of all things,

a reverence so deep the pressure forces one down, dropping them to their knees…..

Fear and adoration whisper through quivering lips,

hearts cry out while trembling bodies press low their chests and cheeks to the ashes scattered along the hardened ground.

OVERWHELM ME…….

To end all wars ( Uriel and Lilith)

Feeling a sadness today, a sadness preparing me for the tone about to beset my story that I am writing….I stumbled across this this morning looking for a melodic tone to reflect my mood. As soon as I heard this song, it reminded me of Uriel and Lilith, the love deepening between them and the journey they are about to embark upon,  the beginning of the sorrows, joys, hardships and triumphs they will ultimately share. Yes, I am very much treating my story as a real live event that I am an active participant in. How else can one write a story such as this and bring about the realness of emotion and heart wrenching dilemma? That and a lack of sleep, lol. But I am having fun and enjoying this little adventure I have only glimpsed of in a dream in times past. I hope you continue to enjoy the story as it unfolds, and enjoy this brief but emotionally beautiful piece of music.

Also, could everyone please let me know if my post notifications are reaching your emails? There seems to be a problem going on that I need to see to if indeed this is the case. Thank you!

Waiting

Surrounded by warmth and light

as the sun’s radiance

shines down it’s loving beams upon me.

I rest in peaceful pastures and think of you

longing and waiting for you

to return back to me.

I squish my toes in the soft grass

as I try to find comfort and solace

for my aching heart.

I close my eyes and turn inward

to the place that grounds my

airborne soul…

Always searching, always wandering

always waiting, yearning….

for love to bring back

the other half of my heart.

Out there somewhere in the infinite skies

floating by the planets and stars

seeking, looking, wanting….

only to have it’s voice come back

with endless echos of mourning.

Oh that you would send an angel

to absorb some of the pain

a touch of momentary relief

for the soreness in my heart.

Nevertheless,

for you I shall wait

no other can compare.

One look at you on that fateful day

sealed my fate for eternity.

So here I am

in peaceful pastures

resting, waiting

for a world with you in it

a world without end.

~ Celeste ~

Triumphant return

I close my eyes

let the quiet settle inside

let the peace guide me

to the still passages of the night.

A sound so sweet to my ears

so pure to reach my heart and soul

it’s sound waves tingle over my skin

suspending me in fluid air.

A tug on my hearts compassion

a momentary outburst

a flood of tears erupt

as I weep for something I have not seen

a thing yet lost and not found.

I feel the heartbeat of the universe

the breath of destruction and creation

the death and birth of nebulas and stars

such beauty and power found

in the cloak of the night.

I am no longer afraid

of this present darkness

the fear and turmoil have tried me

and failed…

there is nothing too horrendous and ugly

nothing so far from the reach

of a saving hand of grace.

On the balcony of my high tower

my eyes travel over the surrounding, majestic seas

a cold, bitter wind lashes my face and through my  hair

and threatens to slice me to my heart

as I think of the long voyages made

by many sailors and warriors

that have fought for and protected my life.

I will welcome their weathered and battle weary souls

with a feast and celebration in their honor

for their bravery and steadfast loyalty.

Should their heart’s desire be for home

I shall send them on their way with goodwill

and with my blessing they shall tarry no more

so far away from their homeland.

And if it be their desire to stay

they will be welcomed and rein as lords and ladies

over the lands they have fought to protect

with so much love in their hearts.

They have stood by me without wavering

not questioning my will

nor my words or resolve.

They kept me true in their hearts

in the most sacred of places

and saw me as I was.

They were never deceived nor surprised

my my intentions or motivations.

They are more than great warriors

they are forever my truest of friends.

~ Celeste ~

Discovering Heaven

At the peak of the mountain stands my soul, joy exuding from every pore…from the top of my lungs a shout of victory and jubilation, and the sound is carried on the winds and scattered throughout the earth and upwards into space, settling peacefully like a soft winter snow, in smooth molecular spheres that shine like ivory pearls. Infused with the strength of a thousand men, I feel as though I could split open the atmosphere and bring the heavens down to the earth.

For today I heard a voice, beheld a marvelous truth….a reflection in the mirror of my soul…and although I now understand how I have always felt it there, I had no words to help me comprehend it or speak of it. I believe some truths are such that they remain hidden until the one who bears it is ready to receive it, able to hold it and carry it respectfully. And now I see for myself a truth for me, and I believe….

My faith has made a momentous leap, grown a proud measure….

Blessed be thy name, lord of glory…..

A day like any other, my reflection in the mirror….but what I see is not what I expect….

But my good father standing there with outstretched arms….. and I know his arms have always been open for me, but this reflection, the image WAS ME…..

The love of the father for me, living in me, rushing through my veins, has now become ME.

It is alive and flowing out of my outstretched arms and out into the world, acknowledging, accepting, giving, believing….willing and unafraid, believing in love eternal, unconditional.

And with a twinkle in his infinite, knowing eyes, he smiled at me……

and that smile spread across my soul, opening it deep and wide, filling each empty space with love, warming my every nerve and fiber, searching out and occupying my every thought…

And the tears that followed were healing waters, washing away the debris of a fractured soul, the jagged remains of the thorny cathedral walls of a dark kingdom’s demise….now all washed away…..

How the revelation has changed my perception….all the good that I have grown to be came from a childlike faith…..my inner child watching and mimicking her heavenly father….the one only seen with the eyes of her heart….

it came by perceiving and accepting his everlasting love for her, loving and believing in her still in all her wrongs and shortcomings, even when everyone else had failed her and left her to feel as though she was not worthy of love……

yet she held on to him still and chose to believe….not even hell itself could convince her to let go, or deceive her away from her birth right! Many times it was all she had, the only reason she had to remain here and continue the journey….he must need her here else why would she be here?

So, in the end, that was good enough for her. So through hellfire, tribulation and pain she endured,…for something she could not see or touch, but only feel with her heart…endured for even just the hope of  what she felt inside.

And for that the father rejoiced and wept with joy…..For an empty place in his own heart was now filled, a sorrow now healed over. He was proud of her and touched by her faith….for she had kept going when she had no earthly reason, no evidence to back up her actions or proof to help support her human frailties….

And so he rewarded her this day, making her a princess and ruler of her own right…..he entrusted her with his belongings and knew she would care for them and lead others into the same light of love…..

What a blessing to see with my own eyes, to know beyond a doubt….that the truth deep down is real, the things hoped for are possible, and dreams do become reality…..and this true to life fairytale is only just beginning….there is a story just like this for everyone…..the gift of a dream waiting to be realized, opened and lived….this is heaven on earth….

We do not need to wait for death to live in heaven. No, the reality of heaven is now, in the present, in this moment….this is how it was always meant to be lived…..it is not just a place, but an eternity, one that we are already in….a perpetual state of reality, the reality of now….heaven is a perspective, a realization, something felt, something discovered…..we do not need to wait for our eyes to see, for they are already open….heaven is where your heart is….heaven is home…..heaven is here, and it is now.

~ Celeste ~

 

• “Peace Mirror” ~Inspirations with Linda Willows (lindawillows.wordpress.com)
• A Reflection of You A Reflection of Me (aninspiredapproach.com)

 

Haiku

A walk through the tranquil wood

my soul in silent contemplation

answered by the cooing of an owl.

Black Hole Sun, Won’t You Come?

This poem was inspired by this old favorite song. I am turning back the pages with this one, recalling a time from my past….hence, reflecting on personal growth and progress….

Black hole sun, won’t you come

and purge the earth anew

swallow up the evil that lives

chop down the weeds that grew.

Black hole sun, won’t you come

and take the liar away

display your power for all to see

obliterate the thief that steals the day.

Black hole sun, won’t you come

to make your judgements known

castrate the fear moving among us

vindicate those whose light has shone.

Black hole sun, wont you come

to punish the empire of death

and cleanse the rot that defiles the air

with the devastating winds of your breath.

~ Celeste ~

Heaven

This is such a beautiful, inspirational, upbeat and uplifting song. I get goosebumps every time I hear it. I cannot say enough good things about it, so listen for yourself and be blessed…..

 

Why God? (Some food for thought)

I stumbled across this today, and I was so touched I had to pass along the blessing to my readers and friends. Love to everyone……………

Food for thought:

Me: God can I ask you a question?
God: Sure…
Me: Promise you won’t get mad!
God: I promise
Me: Why did you let so much stuff happen to me today? … … … …
God: What do you mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late,
God: Yes,
Me: My car took forever to start,
God: Okay,
Me: At lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait,
God: Hmmmm…
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call…..
God: All right,
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home I just wanted to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn’t work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did you do that?
God: Let me see, the Death Angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of the other angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that,
Me (humbled): OH
God: I didn’t let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road,
Me (ashamed)………
God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn’t want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn’t afford to miss work,
Me (embarrassed): Ok,
God: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn’t even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me (softly): I see God,
God: Oh yea and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn’t think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I’m sorry God
God: Don’t be sorry, just learn to trust me…..in all things, the good & the bad.
Me: I will trust you
God: And don’t doubt that my plan for your day is always better than your plan.
Me: I won’t God. And let me just tell you God, thank you for everything today.
God: You’re welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I love looking after my children……

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.”- Isaiah 55:8

Every one have a beautiful evening…… =D

Hunger, Love, and a grateful heart…….

A quote by Chief Dan George

“When Christ said that man does not live by bread alone, he spoke of a hunger. This hunger was not the hunger of the body. It was not the hunger for bread. He spoke of a hunger that begins deep down in the very depths of our being. He spoke of a need as vital as breath. He spoke of our hunger for love.

Love is something you and I must have. We must have it because our spirit feeds upon it. We must have it because without it we become weak and faint. Without love our self-esteem weakens. Without it our courage fails. Without love we can no longer look out confidently at the world…

But with love, we are creative. With it, we march tirelessly. With it, and with it alone, we are able to sacrifice for others.”

Chief Dan George

You would not know this if I did not say it, but I just erased an hour worth of writing and editing of my thoughts and feelings about this quote. But, I realize that my words only muddled the experience, and really nothing more needs to be said by me. Today, I will contemplate on his love, and give thanks for who he is and who I am in him. I will thank him for filling me with the love I so desperately need everyday of my life. I will thank him for every opportunity to to have a breath to experience this wonderful world, to know the peace and the joy that comes simply by knowing him, holding him close to my heart. He is the greatest lover, brother, father, and friend, and I owe my life and all I am to him. He has literally saved my life from certain death, more than once. Not just spiritually, but physically too. By my own hand to take my own life, and from others who would wish to harm me……I am in a delicate and vulnerable place today, but I will use it as an opportunity to strengthen my roots and grow closer still to the source of my life, my Lord, my hero. I do not need to be afraid….though right now I am fragile, I will not break….and if I break he is able to piece me together….and if I break, let it be for his glory. Today, I will rejoice and be glad in this new day, another day to be alive and know love. I hope everyone has a blessed day filled with comfort and love as you go about your daily activities. Some time today, stop for a moment, take a deep breath, and send up a thank you, a grateful heart, as an offering for such a beautiful, phenomenal life……..

~ Celeste ~

Starry Night Sky

The night was magical, the stars so bright

no moon to dim their twinkle tonight.

But even so, all on their own

the Earth was aglow with the light they shone.

Reflections on the water, of the stars in their abode

A liquid canvas of black glass bore the beauty they bestowed.

No thoughts of tomorrow, or the plaguing of woes

the silent arms of the night hold me in loving repose.

A solitary crimson star, stands out from among the host

a splendid jewel to adorn the sky, unique in it’s singular boast.

Lost in velvet bliss, in the stillness of the deep

my soul opened wide to receive it , as much as my heart could keep.

Floating on a sea of peace, I smile and close my eyes

giving thanks for the joy and wonder, underneath the starry sky.

~ Celeste ~

Tangerine Sun

Hot, blazing orb of orange

a bright and happy glow

bursting throughout the forestry

imprinting the ground with shadows below.

An explosion of glorious color

the hues of fire and light

reflecting off drops from a recent rain

blazing topaz bear the leaves delight.

A shining sea of orange bliss

toward the light I began to run

and gave myself to the joy I found

in the light of the tangerine sun.

~ Celeste ~

The Fall

Weightless, through the void I roam

frozen, heart of flesh turned to stone

the colors of my mind have flown

robbed of all I call my own.

Empty, the world is blotted out

blackened, every passage, every route

the flowers of hope now seeds of doubt

fear now replacing where faith did sprout.

Chaos, all peace has been slain

lost, my steps go against the grain

home is a desire longed for in vain

hopelessness has established it’s reign.

Dark lord, behold him and despair

tyranny, the principality of the air

seeks to destroy all that is fair

his lies lure the weak into his lair.

Dreaming, I hear my masters call

drawing me back from the dark ones gall

breaking the bonds of his deadly enthrall

awake from the nightmare, I rise from the fall.

~ Celeste ~

Lost

Beautiful though the day may be

something is amiss

don’t feel like me in spite of myself

I’m bereft of the angels kiss.

Too long have I been dwelling

in an unfamiliar place

too long have I been missing

 the light upon my face.

Body wrenched in menacing pain

I’m stuck like a bump on a log

the rhythmic tones of my soul are

unreachable through the fog.

Who is this plundering stranger inside

this foreigner with steely chains

raiding my storehouse and binding my strength

ghostly remnants of me estranged.

Haunted visions of veiled faces

the reflection of the mirror lies

I try to remember the words given to me

I must believe though they be in disguise.

~ Celeste ~

If I die young….

Every time I hear this song, I am moved to tears….it rings truth through my soul and urgency through my veins…and it is close to my heart from my own personal trials and painful losses….the song carries an innocence and powerful conviction for the gift of life and the frailty of our mortality….I have written out the beautiful lyrics for you and I know you will be blessed as you give a few moments to hear the message….bless each one of you as you reflect on the value and preciousness of your life and as you carry on throughout your day….Namaste….

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She’ll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain’t always what you think it ought to be, no
ain’t even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin’ of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They’re worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you’re dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need ‘em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls